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pated!Tuesday, September 4, 2007
Going for it
Will karma come back to bite me on this one? I just don't know. With my luck (paired with my ever-so-optimistic outlook), I'd venture to guess that yes, I will pay for this in my future. But it's happened to me so many times, the other way around...am I just being too sensitive, when I ought to just truck on and not look back? The people in the rear-view being, of course, Joe and Graham. I suppose that's why they say it's smart to date one person at a time. But why close out the options? Had I closed out my options, I wouldn't have left myself open to the opportunity sitting right out in front of me. That opportunity, being, of course, Patrick.
Patrick is someone whose scent has been locked in my bloodhound memory since the day I first laid eyes on him. He's been off-limits that entire time. Aside from the fact that Jason, my first "real" and still very good friend from UPS, is very close friends with Patrick, there was a girlfriend of many years in the picture, which placed him so far out of reach that I was forced to bury my attraction to him deep down. This was not easy, but I got used to it. After all, I knew Jason used to have a real crush on me, and I felt weird about showing interest in one of his friends, out of some twisted up form of respect, regardless of Patrick's relationship status.
Jason and I have often double-dated with Patrick, since we all get along well and have a good time. Every time, it's been more routine for me to ignore my attraction, since Patrick sure seemed as if he preferred the company of more mature women (I'd say "older," but I'm doing my best to be polite...for the record, age really didn't seem to mature them anything but outwardly)...not to mention Jason's constant presence during any interaction that might have occurred between Patrick and I. This weekend, however, was different entirely.
I was invited to join up with Patrick, Jason, and friends on Patrick's boat this Saturday, which included no potential love interests of Patrick (I scouted this out, first thing). I wasn't even sure I'd get a chance to drop a single hint, and I've obviously got other variables in the background (Joe and Graham), but I left the option wide open, and...well...what can I say, but "Bingo." I couldn't believe it--not only did he reciprocate total interest, but he cleared everything right up. It's been so difficult for me to see through the haze of this dating ritual I've been taking part in, and how was I to know that it's actually possible to be attracted to someone without being scared of getting my feet too wet to get out of the water if need be. I didn't need to test the waters, I jumped right in--never underestimate the power of the cannonball. As odd as it still sounds to say this, I'm his girlfriend now, and sometimes it really is just that simple.
Patrick is someone whose scent has been locked in my bloodhound memory since the day I first laid eyes on him. He's been off-limits that entire time. Aside from the fact that Jason, my first "real" and still very good friend from UPS, is very close friends with Patrick, there was a girlfriend of many years in the picture, which placed him so far out of reach that I was forced to bury my attraction to him deep down. This was not easy, but I got used to it. After all, I knew Jason used to have a real crush on me, and I felt weird about showing interest in one of his friends, out of some twisted up form of respect, regardless of Patrick's relationship status.
Jason and I have often double-dated with Patrick, since we all get along well and have a good time. Every time, it's been more routine for me to ignore my attraction, since Patrick sure seemed as if he preferred the company of more mature women (I'd say "older," but I'm doing my best to be polite...for the record, age really didn't seem to mature them anything but outwardly)...not to mention Jason's constant presence during any interaction that might have occurred between Patrick and I. This weekend, however, was different entirely.
I was invited to join up with Patrick, Jason, and friends on Patrick's boat this Saturday, which included no potential love interests of Patrick (I scouted this out, first thing). I wasn't even sure I'd get a chance to drop a single hint, and I've obviously got other variables in the background (Joe and Graham), but I left the option wide open, and...well...what can I say, but "Bingo." I couldn't believe it--not only did he reciprocate total interest, but he cleared everything right up. It's been so difficult for me to see through the haze of this dating ritual I've been taking part in, and how was I to know that it's actually possible to be attracted to someone without being scared of getting my feet too wet to get out of the water if need be. I didn't need to test the waters, I jumped right in--never underestimate the power of the cannonball. As odd as it still sounds to say this, I'm his girlfriend now, and sometimes it really is just that simple.
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