Better left Alone

Thank goodness I had some sort of an agenda yesterday--the end of the summer is just crawling by. Part of me wants it to wrap up and finish already, so I can get on with starting school, and part of me would like to savor my last free moments before I'm locked down to being a member of the student body at Stan State once again. Keeping busy has been a task, some days, that's for sure. Reading a bunch, running errands (but not too many errands, that gas money doesn't just fall out of the sky), among other random things, causes the time to tick on by day after day. After stopping by Janet's yesterday afternoon, it's obvious she definitely knows how I feel. It seems she's on the same game plan (just waiting), except she's waiting to have her baby in a couple of weeks.

After returning home from Janet's, I heated up some leftovers and watched some mindless television, chatted with Michelle on the phone, like I usually do in the evening. I was expecting to meet my brother for a bit at Chili's, before he headed off to his night class, but he's been swamped at work and texted me as much late that afternoon, unfortunately. Chit chatting with Michelle is always a somewhat cheerful thing, because I can make her laugh pretty easily, and that gives me a good feeling. I try not to think too much about our friendship...I care about her so much, and aside from all of the random this-and-that type of events that have occurred since we've been friends, I find it hard to swallow that she's seriously dating this certain someone who is in her life. I've had to step back a bit in the last year or so, mainly because of her divorce and things of that nature, but also because of a few things that have turned out a little fishy, or to put it plainly, I've turned over a few rocks that revealed a lack of truth in certain instances. The person she's dating is someone who tried to pursue me for a short time, the catch is that he was married at that point (and I should mention he elected to keep that information to himself). No longer married, who does he pursue but Michelle, and they've been together for quite awhile now. I'm ecstatic that she is so happy, but I can't help but feel odd about her not questioning his honesty regarding his actions toward me. Actions that I recounted to her, in detail, while she was still married, since we were friends (perhaps better friends, back then, but maybe not?). Does she shut out the fact that he behaved that way, did he make an excuse for it, which she ate up like pudding, or does she not even think that way, just basking in the glory of having a boyfriend, especially a boyfriend at work? It's just another item on a list of things that are unclear to me between us, and I'm not going to open that can of worms. Obviously she's happy, and I shouldn't intrude on that, so I leave the elephant in the room, and watch it fatten up like a Christmas goose with every conversation.